>my Gucci<

salam.

wahh! dh berhabuk dh blog nih since the last entry was last month. huhu. byk bende dlm sebln ni. exam + xde mood + semester break + other things. hhmmm....cuti seminggu aritu sgt tidak produktif. selain jd driver sambil mempertingkatkn driving skill, xwat bende laen pon. most of the tyme abis kat dlm bilik tgk cite korea + jepun. sgt seronok smpi addicted. Goo Jun Pyo + Kim Bum. sgt ske kat diorg. gentleman...dat's all i can say. berangan nk dpt...eemmmm....(gile berangan, bgn2!) haha:D

last day cuti, br kuar gi shopping. disbbkn pakai duit plastik, jd sgt seronok! hehe! at 1st rase cam mls nk kuar, but then kuar gak la sbb xde driver laen. smpi2 kat jusco, rase cam nk pengsan tgk byk gile sale. ape lg, kite enjoy! adela beli brg skit. 2 handbag. tu pon yg sale smpi 70%. hhmmm...kalo dh sale cenggitu, wajib beli la kn. bahagie!

pastu, dh stat kuliah balik. huhu. sgt malas. malas setinggi gunung everest! argghhh.......!!!!! kuliah + klinik + result exam => xnk bgn tido. tp yg seronoknye, baru ari 1st kuliah tuk sem 6 ni, dh bleh gi tgk movie! gile selambe! my Prada! tension nye psl, team pisau cukur pon dpt untung. haha! thanks to hanis sbb temankn kite:) oh my Dior, seronok gile!

agaknye sbb wat d**** mase ari 1st kuliah tu la dpt hadiah batuk + Jimmy Choo...*bersin* (selesema) + sakit kepala + hilang suara aka suara sexy. huhu. padan ngan muke sendiri, kenela telan ubat byk2. but now, getting betterla. alhamdulillah.

at the moment, tgh tesion ngan mereka2 yg masih baru di sini dan tidak memahami. kpd kwn2, gud luck lah tuk kite sume. semoge kite masih mampu bernafas smpi final year nnti n grad bersama-sama.




p/s : tuk team netball sy, marilah kite berlatih dgn gigih. huhu :D

pengetua sekolah yg mgkn xsekolah. sgt teruk.

salam.

getting mad with someone is really2 irritating. especially if she doesnt know 'bout it yet still smiling. hate this beng*** person very much! mcm xsekolah! arrghh...geram sgt. feel like wanna scold her n slap her face. but the problem here is, if i yg attack die dulu, nnti diri sendiri yg 'hujan' dulu. sbb dh thn mrh for a long tyme. tu yg ssh tu.
eeiiii....i hate her!!!!! ade gak org teruk mcm tu kat dunia ni. xde hati perut langsung. mcm xleh nk pk. actually, i'm always wondering why some people cant think like other NORMAL people can think. just simple2 things yg bdak tadika pun bleh pk. pelik. sgt pelik. where is the common sense? where did u left it?


moral of the story: dont ever left ur common sense in the toilet or else...

kecewa dgn sikap die yg ske wat2 xphm tp hakikatnye sedar dgn keadaan sekeliling

lately, terlalu malas utk update blog ni...
nnti2la...bile dh ade mood...
byk nk tulis sbnrnye...bye

xtau nk letak title ape.

salam.

huh?! dh abis cuti! rase sekejap sgt. sok, dh kene start pk psl clinic balik, psl patients, psl requirements n psl study. alaaaa.......=(
dlm seminggu ni, rase cam kepale ni ringan skit. xpk byk bende sgt. relaks je. huhu.

tp dlm seminggu ni jugak la, byk plak dihujani oleh 'usikan' @ soklan cepumas (btol ke eja ni?) tu. bentuk soklan @ usikan laen tp sumenye m'bawa maksud yg same. cth2 nye:
1) "dr. lelaki camne?" (knape mesti ade dr kat dpn tuh? confuse.)
2) wat keje kat dapur skit, "ni dh bleh kenduri dh ni..." (confuse lg)
3) "dh ade boyfriend blom?" (adoii, straight forward abis! tp dlm ati nk jwb, "boyfriend mmg byk tp yg special...emmm, confuse lg)
4) "xlame lg, kenduri la kite..." (kenduri ape?!? confuse lg)
lebih kurang cam tulah kesahnye, tp, kebykan soklan @ usikan itu, hanye disambut dgn " no comment." (rase cam celebrity plak. ahaks =p)

bkn niat nk mengelak, hakikatnye, dlm keadaan skarang ni, mase yg ade telah diperuntukkan utk pk bende2 laen yg lebih penting (clinic, study, etc). walaupun kdg2 ade rase sedikit t'ganggu coz classmate ade yg nk kawen (congratz to u!=)), tp xpela, nnti, bile2 ade mase, pklaa. lalalala. xtau nk ckp camne sbnrnye. hehe.
adakah krn sy anak sulung, sy di'attack' dgn soklan tu terlalu awal? xtaula. no comment.

eemmm...teringat ade sorang kwn tu prnh ckp, abaikn ape org nk kate, kite cubela jd seperti sebiji epal yg berada di atas pokok, di bhgn yg paling tinggi, tidak prnh menggugurkn dirinye utk dikutip oleh org laen, tetapi hanye setia berada di tmptnye dan menunggu utk dipetik oleh org yg berusaha memetiknye. dan org yg memetiknye itu, insyaAllah yg terbaik utknye.
ok, then. sy cube utk menjadi buah epal itu, insyaAllah.


sekian saje tuk kali ni. nk gi wat kueh buah melaka. papai.

selamat berpuasa

slm.

sedar x sedar, Ramadan menjelma lg. rase cam baru je sambut raye.
dh nk raye balik (pose xlg, dh pk raye. ahaks. pe daa)
xpela. yg penting, harap2, Ramadan kali ini lebih bermakne dan dpt mencipta satu anjakan paradigma dlm diri ini, insyaAllah...
so, slmt berpuase to all ma frens...semoga kite dpt keberkatan di bln yg mulia ni.



p/s: skarang i dh join facebook coz rase cam dh ketinggalan plak. huhu =p

#tHe cLiMb by mILeY cyrUs#

I can almost see it,
That dream I'm dreaming but,
There's a voice inside my head saying,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels,
Lost with no direction,
My faith is shaking,
but I, I gotta keep trying,
Gotta keep my head held high...

There's always gonna another mountain,
I'm always gonna wanna make it move,
Always gonna be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you gonna have to lose,
Aint about how fast I get there,
Aint about what's waiting on the other side,
It's the climb...

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking,
Sometimes might knock me down but,
no I'm not breaking,
I may not know it,
but these are the moments that,
I'm gonna remember most, yeah...
Just gotta keep going,
and I, I gotta be strong,
Just keep pushing on, cause

Keep on moving,
Keep climbing,
Keep the faith baby...
It's all about,
It's all about,
the climb,
Keep the faith,
Keep your faith, Whoa

p/s: love dis song, n i'll keep climbing =D

hadiah hjg mggu~

huh!?!
kebelakangan ini, setiap mggu, kami sentiasa diberi some sort of 'hadiah' utk dibawa pulang ketika cuti weekend...

some people sampai bwk 'hadiah' ini ke alam mimpi, wahh! betapa hebatnye 'hadiah' itu...=\
ia sgt2 mempengaruhi rutin kami pd hujung mggu, either xleh nk wat keje langsung, asyik terpikir je, n at last tidoooo je, or dh penat pikir, then mls nk pikir, pastu ikut rase ati, enjoy je...
at dis moment, xde satu word pun yg dpt menggmbrkn perasaan skarang ni...xde satu pon...

perasaan ni = stress + confuse + benci + marah + sakit ati + xtau nk buat ape
so, rasenye, dwn bahasa kene cari satu word barula kot...

huh!? really hate it!

*internal conflicts*

salam.

mggu2 yg br sj berlalu ini amat memeritkn. sehingga terase sesak ruang dada, luckily masih mampu bernafas...
sbnrnye, terlalu byk yg ingin dikongsi di sini, teeerlalu byk tetapi mase sgt2 tidak mengizinkn, emosi juge tidak stabil, mcm2 bende berlegar-legar di ruang hemisphere2 yg ade...
internal conflicts berebut-rebut menguasai diri.
setiap satu merayu diberi perhatian, malangnya, akal yg waras hanya satu dan ia sdg rancak digunakn.

setiap keputusan yg telah dibuat dikaji semula. adakah wajar ia dikaji? aah...pedulikn wajar atau tidak. yg pasti keputusan2 itu hampir kesemuanya bkn diputuskn sendiri. keputusan org laen utk org laen. =(

sedikit peringatan telah diberikn, dan peringatan itu telah membuatkn org laen terluka, namun tidak dia kerana dia telah pun terluka dan bernanah bermggu2 lamenye...
sgt sakit dan pedih...btul! tidak tipu.
ingin mencari seseorg yg sudi mendengar, setelah byk saringan dibuat, tidak seorg pun yg layak. sgt malang...

internal conflict yg pertama membuatkn rase ingin keluar dari kepompong itu, tapi tidak pasti sbg ape, rama2 @ kupu2. setakat ini hanya mampu pasrah dgn segalanya. just wait n see.

internal conflict yg kedua, sukar utk dijelaskn. keliru utk menyatakn diagnosis dan treatment plannye kerana signs n symptoms yg ditunjukkn sgt samar2. dlm erti kata laen, generalized. hanya steroid saje yg mampu diprescribekn. semoga ia lebih tersuluh. agar specific regimen bleh diterbangkn.

pening dgn ape yg berlaku. frankly speaking, jika iman tiada di dada, mgkin itu...@ mgkin ini...ntah, takut utk menyataknnya. semoga Allah memelihara diri ini.



p/s: ske tgk cite 'love story in harvard' (xde kaitan pon, h0h0)

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pd suatu hari, ketika yamapi sdg melakukn rutin harian di klinik...

yamapi : kite xnmpkla...

siwon : xpe, cube je...

setelah bertukar ke beberape jenis posisi...

yamapi : kite xnmpk jugak, camne ni?

siwon : meh kite cube plak...

setelah beberape ketike...

siwon : kite pun xberape nmpk gak, sshla...

yamapi : abis tu, camne ni?

siwon : panggil doctor, nk?

yamapi : bleh gak...

doctor 1 tibe ...

yamapi : doc, sy xleh nk wat sbb sy xnmpk sgt cavity tu...

doc 1 : tyme ni la awk nk blaja...sy buat skit, pastu awk smbg...

bunyi handpiece kedengaran...

yamapi : time kaseh doc...

yamapi cube skali lg...

yamapi : sshla, kite xnmpk sgt...arrghh, camne ni? (stat nk give up, nk nangis pun ade)
siwon, kite nk panggil doc lg la...

yamapi pun gi panggil doc 2...

yamapi : eemmm....doc 2, i hav a big problem...

doc 2 : what hav u done? (mgkin dgn rase cuak dlm ati, "apela bdak ni dh buat")

yamapi : (dlm ati, "i hav done nothing, doc 2")
actually, i cant do the cavity prep, i cant really see the cavity...

doc 2 : ok...

bunyi handpiece kedengaran lg...

doc 2 : ok, do the dressing...

yamapi pun buatla dressing kat cavity tu...

moral of the story : kite mestilah mencube, Allah pasti membantu, walaupun yamapi hampir x buat pape pd ari tu, die still dpt tandetgn doc...
thank you, doc!!=D

titis2 kristal itu milikku

salam...

senja itu...
jihad itu tercabar...
runtuh sudah benteng yg telah lama dibina...
juga, gugur sudah titis2 embun kristal yg kali terakhir gugur 10 thn yg lalu...
walaupun ia prnh gugur dahulu, namun kali ini, ia diiringi rasa tulus n ikhlas...
ikhlas kerana dirinya...

lagu dendangan Yuna-Dan Sebenarnya, bermain di ruang kepala...
sedih...sgt sedih...sgat2 sedih...=(

+ my first precious patient +

salam everyone

it was my first day in the clinic, treating the real patients, who can feel pain n have feelings...
they are not dummies, which we can give names to them n just 'play' around with them...
do watever u wanna do with them; haha...this principle is ONLY valid to the dummies NOT to the real patients...it's also valid in the previous years but not dis year...the principle has expired...

knowing dat i will start treating real patients, i feel like the electric current is flowing happily, all over my body...shocked, but wat to do...frankly speaking, i felt terrible on dat night, dont know wat to think of, wat to say n many more wat to...
luckily, eventhough i was not in the good mood, i still can sleep...dats the best part of me, no matter how terrible my day was or how 'big' my problem was, i still can sleep, luv dat!=D

my first patient was qila's big bro. i was very lucky to have him as my first patient since i made some 'clicking' sound on dat day. the bell was ringing...haha, never forget it for the rest of my life. i cant imagine if it happens on other patients. i'm sure, i will be the unlucky person with big red rounded nose. Oh no...
my first day in the clinic was not too bad except for the 'clicking' part la...i just do the e&d, cant proceed...a bit frustrated...
watever has happened, still a big thanks to qila's bro for being so supportive...=)
thanks a lot to everyone

eemmm...i still have that feeling when dealing with patients, i MUST overcome it, n they told me, it will slowly develop along the way, wat i need to do now is trying my best, yes, my best...i can do it!~


ganbatte everyone!!!

album kawen

pd suatu mlm....


"wow, canteknye album kawen abg apis ni! tige album lg....byk gile gmbr diorg!"

huhu...tula ekspresi yg tkeluar tyme aku tgk album tu, kagum melihat gmbr kawen abg apis (my cousin) n kak anne yg byk giler dlm album2 yg gedabak tuh.
mcm2 pose ade, kat pantaila, naek kudela...fuh!

tetibe...


"ala, baru tige album.....nnti tyme kekqa nnti, 10 album..." ujar mama.

dlm ati aku, "makk aiii! 10 album! biar btul! nk amek gmbr ape tuh?!? dhla aku ni jenis yg anti-kamera, nk amek gmbr smpai 10 album?!? mustahil tuh...ntah2, satu album pun x sampai...haha"

pape pun, tula hakikatnye....aku ni xske b'gmbr, sensitif tgk kamera ni, amekkn gmbr org laen blehla, tgk gmbr2 yg cantek tu aku skela, tp...........bile nk b'gmbr tuh, menyampahnye! =I


p/s: kpd mama, akak x sure lg akak ade album kawen ke x nnti, tp satu je yg pasti.... insyaAllah, I will get married one day!! =D

my world

never cross in my mind even once...

but need to accept it...

happy?

dentist-to-be

burs n files...

...

bhn2 eksperimen...

ganbatte, piqa!!


p/s: thanks hadi 4 da pics..=D

his-story

mls tuk mencoretkn cerite sndiri
lebih ske membace cerite mereka2 yg laen
yg xprnh ketandusan idea
itulah aku....

krn, dgn method ini, aku mampu mengenali diri mereka2...
mereka2 yg xmampu ku hampiri pd ketika ini
atas sbb2 yg aku sendiri xpasti...

method ini juge membenarkn aku tuk mencari di mane potensi diri..
yg mgkin telah lame pergi, agar kembali di sisi...
mgkin juge mengisi kekosongan hati....dgn bhn2 yg bererti...

my heart

"the human heart,
at any age,
0pens 0nly t0 the heart
that 0pens in return"
Marie Edgeworth



begitulah juge hatiku...(erk!?!) =D